I've been isolated and stuck at home for years. I'm not even able to escape. I hate only having online friends. I can feel my mental state slipping day by day - my therapists my only main source of comfort. I still hate knowing that even they can't help. My family can't help. Eventually I can leave, but "eventually" is awful too. I can't disclose personal info but honestly I'm thinking of contacting runaway services/homeless shelters. I feel like I'm becoming more delusional too. just typing here is exhausting.