Everyone has been out celebrating Christmas and New Year and I'm stuck with a cokehead boyfriend who cancels plans last second so he can snort and goon all night. Seriously considering ending the relationship as the only time I can talk to him about how this is damaging the relationship is when he's on coke - or he gets shitty and has a tantrum. Feel like I just want to hang myself and be done with everything. I've had a shit life of near constant abuse and at 44 years old, I just can't do it anymore. Everywhere is constant disappointment.